Currently...

running circles in my head
makes my stomach queasy
frustration is abound
and I don’t know what to do
about this loneliness
just so much convolution
it’s pacing through my body
and the hatred in my chest
has returned with a new pick ax
looking to chisel its way back into my heart
finding a home it once new
many years ago
my body is changing and
it’s hard to filter the anger anymore
complicated, destructive genes
carry more than they should and
I’d wish the statement I repeat
was true but sometimes I give up on it
I find myself writing these emotions
Knowing this isn’t
who I am
Knowing this isn’t
who I ever want to become
and it feels better to write it out.

And with time
Determination,
Faith,
And devotion,
I will find my path!