Hunger...

...it is what describes me.

"Pocket full of shells!" or maybe "Laser to your face!", you choose.

Receiving drunk phone calls are the best. Whether it’s someone you don’t know that well but apparently got friendly with or your boss calls reaping news, they simply rock!

So I’m working on two projects. One of them for the DCTC. It is coming along slow but productive. The other I’ve finished and am now trying to get on Youtube and Facebook. It is of MD playing HALO. HILARIOUS!!!! You have to see this, it is, in one word A-M-A-Z-I-N-G! It will make it in the visual edits section to the right and it may never, ever leave it.

I’ve got the song When It’s Over on repeat, by NONPOINT. Have I ever said I love NONPOINT. Well I do. I do. I feel very productive but I’m probably going to crash soon. Must remember to turn coffee pot on for PW.

Sometimes I freakin hate YouTube. It’s taking forever for this video to load, even the smaller one. Uploading this stuff has to be the most annoying crap to deal with ever. Maybe I just need to be more educated.

Mark, I want my own webpage for this stuff. HELP!

Bird feed...

John suggested I bring in the peppers because it looked as though they might grow year round. However today I saw a cardinal eating off one of them and I've decided to stay lazy and let the birds pick them to death. Sorry John, no peppers for you.

"Everything, everything is magic"

Sheri came over last night after she got out of work. We made nachos, with lots of cheese, LOTS! Then we took our left-over nachos, pan and all, over to Ty and Even's. They liked the nachos but I think the buzz they were wearing might of had something to do with it.

We played 5 games of beer pong, only drank one beer. It was mostly for funzies and it was funzies.

It happened today...

in a way that is familiar to theses eyes.
I was given one of those accidental signs.
And its a reminder of glutenous actions.
It is now a dirty memento.
I know I'm not alone, I know this.
I fight it and I go so back and forth,
it scares me clinically.
But who isn't worried about their own sanity sometimes?
Who doesn't flip flop like a dying fish now and again?

I realize the statement in my head is true,
it causes me to fight out loud,
but truly nothing can stop me.
I'm fighting shit that isn't worth it.
Acceptance, Acceptance, Acceptance
It is key.
Weak is the person who doesn't adapt.
Worthless is the person who doesn't ask questions,
argue, or fight.
To roll over and die is pathetic.
Only so many honestly deserve pity.
Get over it. Get over it.
I'm over it.
I'm back!

Ripping...

words from my skull,
and pushing them together,
seems to take out some this frustration,
some of my ignorance is lost in these words,
and I feel better,
like I'm screaming.

Currently...

running circles in my head
makes my stomach queasy
frustration is abound
and I don’t know what to do
about this loneliness
just so much convolution
it’s pacing through my body
and the hatred in my chest
has returned with a new pick ax
looking to chisel its way back into my heart
finding a home it once new
many years ago
my body is changing and
it’s hard to filter the anger anymore
complicated, destructive genes
carry more than they should and
I’d wish the statement I repeat
was true but sometimes I give up on it
I find myself writing these emotions
Knowing this isn’t
who I am
Knowing this isn’t
who I ever want to become
and it feels better to write it out.

And with time
Determination,
Faith,
And devotion,
I will find my path!

"You got me running & hidin all over town."

Some of the best five days I’ve had off in like, FOREVER!

Friday
I finished work and went to a costume party in Saginaw with the entire gang.
Highlights included:
SpaceGhost put gas in the van.
Kyle puts on a show.
We escape from party with no repercussions.
MD’s mojo.

Returned to The Oak where I was able to begin drinking. It was a rad time.
Highlights included:
Single Barrel Jack
PW’s version of the Walls of Jericho
Karen’s bottle of magic OJ
Melly’s Pancakes
MD’s mojo was still workin
Club P-Dub

Saturday
It started with a hang over. (surprised?) Eventually found some food with Kyle and then gathered things up and traveled to Grand Rapids to see T-Dawg and Little E. Special guest star: YODA!

We went to this place in downtown GR called The BOB. It was great and sophisticated.
Highlights included:
Four cheese macaroni w/chicken! Good god ya’ll, mmmmmm…..
Appletinis
Dancing (pretty much looked as uncoordinated as you can imagine)
Mr. Grinn’s Comedy Club
(T-Dawg told them it was my B-day and I told the comedian I was turning 35. He said he could tell by the receding hair line and pot belly. Then I told him I was single and told the ladies I was available. You could hear a pin drop. It was pretty funny.)
Comedian Ryan Bellville – “I like drinking games. I made this one where every time I feel empty inside I take a drink. ….. I win every time."

Sunday
Little E made a super good, really tasty homemade breakfast. Eggs, bacon, toast, and fried potatoes. Then we played a little tennis. I really need to practice and hit the gym. Fer realizes.

I left T-Dawg and Little E’s and stopped in Lansing and spent the rest of Sunday with Mark-O. We got a pizza and watched the Lions’ games. Holy crap, did they ever lay the wood on Denver.

It was really great being able to spend some time with those guys. I don’t get to see them that often and I’m glad they weren’t busy this weekend. It made me feel euphoric.

Returned to The Oak late Sunday night and it bled into Monday morning.

MD, Kyle and I stayed up listening to music and singing songs. It was super awesome. We made it until PW had to get up for work at 420. MD planned on scarrying him when opened his door but PW got the best of that situation by whipping the door open and yelling “BOO!” in MD’s face. Eventually went to bed after a few games of hockey with Kyle.

Monday
Hung out with Kyle and MD for most of the morning. Kyle and I played some guitar hero. Once PW got home, after helping clean out the shed, he and I went out to conquest the country side. Took a couple pics, one of them is in the Salgat Art Studio. Once back home he played some Halo with Trumpet and I bummed around the web, eventually watching the Ranger/Flyer game in black/white and sitting in a $5 old man chair - classic.

Once MD and Kyle got home, we watched V for Vendetta. Love that movie, just love it. MD tapped out early, he is pretty much a *********. (******** = my inability to find proper adj.)

Tuesday
MD smoked me in a few games of NHL 08, back to the strategy drawing board for this guy. Kyle and I went and had lunch with SA at Jimmy Johns. Lovely food, for an expensive price. Stopped by Target and picked up the new Nonpoint album, Vengeance. It is heavy, almost metal. I do enjoy it, we will see just how much it grows on me.

Trumpet returned to The Oak with a 50 inch DLP – HD – ZJ capable TV!!!!!! AMAZING! Thank you to Trumpet and MD’s parents. Can’t wait for Sunday.

I made it back to APT which was freezing. Jer, Melly, and SA came over. We hugged it out, nice. Watched Chuck, Heroes, ECW, and Rules of Engagement. All very enjoyable.

I’m looking forward to getting back to work. I think my back is cramping from all the sitting around, but it was joyous. Just joyous.

Black Mamba

Maybe it is because I haven't really eaten yet today but this Yoplait strawberry yogurt is heavenly!


Going emo tonight, pic to come.